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ok.. i am officially surronded by dead flies, lizard poop and other roaches.

FUCKING GROSS LA THE DUTY ROOM!

humprf..

i think i should complain to mummy so that.... lol..

hmm.. so i was on a week long MC. actually a supposed chickenpox scare!

but just a flu virus but got me having fever for 3 friggin days

and wozzy on the 4th day still!

maybe it was the alcohol la with keithie la.

it hasnt been pleasent cause i think i could have made my week long mc

more friendly than OFFICIALLY die on my bed.

ok ok, i did clear my wardrobe! (was it last wk? fuck!)

tabe? (no shit! i didnt. still messy!)

erm... i.... oh oh oh.. i updated facebook! :)

ok.. thats not good.. it didnt make me feel better. :(

ok.. maybe the 3 hour hairdo was a good thing! haha..

yeah, i straightened by hair and cut a totally new 'mod' look which

mummy exclaims to be 'vogue' looking. haha..

now my hair is my hair, my eyebrows are my eyebrows..

dunno what it means! ??????

i did spent a good saturday with kiethie tho! promised to drive my bestie out at last!

haha.. horrid for him cos i SHOPPED NON STOP!

lol.. talk about conquering orchard rd. WE DID!

he was so utterly exhausted (poor thing) but i was like:

"i havent go topshop, zara ..... yet"

poor guy couldnt believe his ears! hahahhha..

WORST FOR ME WAS WHEN I REALISED FUCKIGN CARPARK WAS

13 BUCK LA! STUPID ORCHARD ROAD!

lol.. the best part was when we raided a couple making out in the toilet! lol...

WE YELLED! DUN THINK WE DUNNO WHATCA DOING AR!

bet they peed off their penis! hahah.. u get me now? "P

being stuck in camp now really sucks big time man.

i am totally not enjoying it!

ok at least i managed to speak to samantha for like a good 2 hrs!

man.. it has been ages since we last chatted! lol

i still rmb how i use to skip cca just to do lunch with her and the shopping!

hmmm.. my my.. jc days.

cant wait to go mambo on the 7 may with her.

GIRLFRIEND! :)

well, she did really well for A levels! congrats honeeeyy! :)

sadly, i was kinda awakened when she reminded me to start mugging!

yeah.. i realised i do have tonnes to mug.

well what is easy.

i wanna do this do that.

when can i concentrate on what i wanna do?

or even settle down?

ok, i just 'broke up'!

people have been asking: "u feeling better?"

hmm.. to be honest, well after much deep soul searching...

the truth is.

there was no love to begin with, where do the heartbreak come from?

seriously, i was DESPERATE.

hmmm... sadly but true.

i know it's mean! but what can i do. i dont mean to flirt sometimes.

but i dont know la. it's unconcious! i am not kidding!

so i hope that my mugger'tude is working up tomorrow in office.

i really want to do well.

lonely

what if 20 years from now the same thing is happening now happens again?

i sit here alone.
feeling sad and sorry for myself.
being unaccomplished in many fields of my life.
so what if i got my new haircut. even tho i heart it! haha.
everyone i love around me is in bliss. :) yay!
i know that there are bumps on the road.
nothing is smooth.
but still, better to savour the moment than never i say.
i dont know it's because i am being picky.
but i'm human.
isnt there freedom of choice?
then why am i complaining?
gosh, i make my life even more complex!
it's amazing how i torture myself mentally.
vicious cycle it may be.
i dont know.
let's hope at the end of it all.
i dont have to sing to the world.
YOU MUST LOVE ME.....

Life's is a bed of sweet peaches but thorny ROSES...

so fuck u bitches reading my blog.

yes u guys.

i am in a super foul mood right now.

having fever and my comp is lagging.

i dont know.

i feel digusted with myself.

i dont know why. maybe it is the fever. so dont blame me k! :P

my stupid hp doesnt stop buzzing! omg u wont believe it man. when i switched it on this morning it went beep beep beep * 10! imagine annoying a trillion times plus a major headache.

fuck. it's still beeping now.

so yeah.. single once again. i dunno. maybe i deserve it.

i'm being needy.

yes, i know it.

i guess i know what i want so well that if i know that

at the end of it all, if this is not what i am getting

FUCK OFF.

then i start regretting again.

the whole process begins.

hmm.. teenage angst.

when can it stop.

so anw, i realised driving is theraputic!

yes. i drove aimlessly the other day in my murano at 130km/hr on the expressway.

yup, u know me!

HAZARD TO MYSELF!

lol..

so i have been visiting laurent bennet chocolatier with tonnes of people..

hmm.. in love with the choc tart.

how nice if someone wld buy it for me!

not me having to drive there with people to get it.

:(

i have to admit i was jealous of my aunt with her bf then other day when we were out.

they were so lovey dovey....

me?

LONELY... MR LONELY...

am i so hard to be with?

probably all my friends will say so..

but u gotta admit. i have mellowed down TONNES!

no longer the self conceited asshole.

so i kinda decided what i wanan do after i ord.

YUP..

BYE ALL..

I AM GOING TO NEW YORK TO WORK..

that is where i want to be.. i am trying to save up now.

to be there in by march 25 and working there alone.

i know it is not going to be easy, not relying on my parents.

i know they will disapprove.

but this quote got to me big time.

Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did so. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.

MARK TWAIN

i guess this is what i wanna live by. not by regrets or anything else.

otherwise, what else is there to live for.

cos right now.

i dun believe in true love.

i dun see it!

i dun believe anything last forever..

it only last for that moment.

maybe only my mummy n daddy..

lol..

i love them.

but they SUCK sometimes.

hmmm...

whoever said life's fair...

LIFE'S A FUCKING BITCH

FUCKED UP...

SCREWED UP...

CYCLING HOME AFTER MY OUTING WITH SAMMIE...

I SECRETLY WISHED THAT I GOT KNOCKED DOWN BY A CAR IN THE DARKNESS..

SADLY, I DIDNT...

OTHERWISE, I WOULDNT BE ABLE TO PUT THIS BLOG...

PPL ASK ME WHAT I WANNA DO...

BE A LAWYER? (I'M NOT SO SMART AND I LIKE MY FREEDOM!)

BE A BANKER? (BORING!)

BE A BUSINESSMAN? (HUH? CRAZY!)

SO WHAT THE FUCK DO I WANNA BE?

RIGHT NOW... I AM

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A FRIGGIN DISASTER!

SCREWED UP!

TWISTED!

FUCK!

ME!

urgh.. take me away man..

i hate my life..

maybe it's just that my family stinks!

:`(

i miss chris (look up)...

LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT!

hahaha.. well. whoever said love at first sight works?

i dun think so..

i guess it took me quite a while.

with a feat that ppl will scream

WHORSIH BLAH BLAH..

well. i am used to it.

so whatever.

u guys

r

JEALOUS!

hahhahaa...

yeah.. so i miss my tv days!

barely watching anymore shows with my up to brim schedules

classes, outing n blah blah..

it has gotten to my parents too.

so u know the trick.

stay home for a night!

next night?

PARTY LIKE A ROCK STAR

been rather tai-taish these days..

haha.. i know it sounds wrong.

but keith la..

bad influence!

haha..

it was pretty funny today when we were in the cab then the uncle asked

"so which way u want me to take ar?"

we replied in unison:

"ANYTHING LA"

lolololololololololol...

it was quite stupid but then yeah..

he was pretty nice to wait with me to see my docs..

i waited quite long but

my fault..

i am always fashionably late.

KARMA BIT ME IN THE HOT ASS LA.

FUCK!

so shall update u guys soon.. and yes.. fatigue is screaming at me again. sigh.