OK.. I DUNNO WHY I AM BLOGGING BUT JUST AM!

BOO!

kate moss boobies attack!

AFRAID NOW BITCHES!

hahahaha...

so life is returning to normal soon i guess. it's like back to ns and all.

well, i am afraid of going back cos i know that i have alot of work waiting for me since i am kinda like on a long mc.

but it is not the fear of the work.

it is having to face the people when they ask why are u on mc

blah blah blah...

well, ok i know i can dont reply.

but i just am not prepared tho.

:(

maybe i am just reliant.

today in rehab, vivian was saying something like:

if you always feel comfortable in the position, u are never gonna improve.

only by being uncomfortable can you improve!

after much thought about the statement she made, i thought it was rather true.

i guess all of us like to be in our state where we are all well and in lalalaland!!!

u can say that i am afraid of going into the unknown and moving out of this state.

WELL U KNOW WHAT!

THIS BITCH HAS DECIDED TO CHANGE!

yeah. i no longer wanna be something i am not.

i want to challenge what i am not happy about. ( well, i have always been doing that! just maybe i can improve on that)

i just need to be a better person which i feel rehab has done a gd job in.

i dont feel like i wasted time there.

rather, i have improved alot as a person.

i guess it's just that i dont dare to be the NEW person i am going to be with the new skills that i am empowered with.

P.S: CHRIS! U SCARED OF THE BOOBY MONSTER! LOLOLOLOL

xoxo

POUTING

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INTENSE....

ok.. sry been missing this couple of days from blogging. like so many things have been happening. i am so going out of my mind. oh! here are a couple of pretty pictures i am uploading for your viewing pleasure. haha.. this was taken with my new lovely LG viewty which chris is totally in love with. hahah.. he calles it beauty instead. :P dun u think the lights fest was so pretty! i took it while at beatnik @ SMU. i dont know... didnt really get to enjoy the festival tho. hmmm...

anyhoo, so lately been really busy. sujith has flown to sydney for his internship with Greenpeace. kinda excited for him. haha... and it was kinda nice being able to see herman too. cos it's been a while since i saw herman too! yeah.. we chatted loads! updated about each other's life and how we are getting along. i rather enjoyed it tho. i'm already missing sujith. really hope he has a great time there. i was thinking of going over there the last week he is there, but with the air ticket costing 1000 over dollars. well, i rather save up for new york! :) sry, babe!

this wk got kinda intense in session too, i had to bring my parents in and tell them blah blah.. omg.. it was hard. i mean, like i never really wanted them to know. cos i feel ashamed! i find there is nothing to be proud of. i guess it is different if you are not too close to your family! well, yeash...

i have to start mugging too. haha.. yeah. like exams are closing in and my mind is like going mindless over many things that really arent that important compared to my studies. i guess it's just me! i dont want to study. i dont like it. i dont want to go back to army either. it's not that it is bad. i just dont feel prepared to face it. i guess the word here is empowered...

well peeps, sry for a entirely boring entry. hahaha..

i gotta go and study...

dangerously pouting,

D

so the story goes...

i was kinda bored the other day. haha.. yeah. u know in office! what the hell can i do right? so i asked 3 of my closest friends to sms me 5 words to describe me! :) so here are some of what they described me as:

1. FIERCE! lol.. i dont know if it is a good or bad thing but well, 2 outta 3! this gotta be me. lol.. i guess it's just my personality to be like fierce. not the literal sense but more of like in your face character i guess.
2. Stylish. haha.. yay! well they all say that. i do know my fashion ABC! so whose to blame right. :)
3. Witty. tell me this isnt true! lol... but yeasshh.. even i gotta admit that i do feel that i am witty. i was watching desperate houswives. (on a side note, i completed the whole season 4 in 2 days! lol!) lynette said that well a rotten childhood makes a person witty or humorous which i really agree. mine really aint that fantastic u know.
4. direct. yeah. i am direct, i dont mince my words. this is me, who i am. well i do try to not be so direct sometimes cos i know it is offensive. haha.. but well those who know we know that i am really fun to be around with k!
5. insecure. yes. i am insecure. with so many events happening throughout my life. me being an ugly ogre etc. well, i am insecure as a person. who isnt? can u look in the mirror and say YES I LOVE MYSELF. haha..

well i was thinking needy. but nah.. i feel that as a person. i have grown alot. i am really more independent. even if i dont have love or anything. i dont think i really need it. rather i feel that i am ok alone. haha.. yeah. truthfully, i treasure friendships more than i treasure relationships. cos i know relationships will end. it's just me. never an optimist about such stuff. friendships on the other hand are just great! cos u know, u can always ring them up n go HEY HEY HO HO.. and back to the old times...

anw, i'll be gg sgh daily for a month. kinda rehabbing myself. i need it. been kinda in a stupor my life. cant take it no more nigga. :(

i'll be updating more pics tho! got myself a new hp! LG viewty. haha.. i love the touch screen tho! :) but the funny thing is that my laptop n now my hp is all LG. kinda weird how i am not really a fan of the brand tho.