had a super long birthday!

haha.. had super great birthday! yup... how many times can u turn 18? ONCE! so ta-dah! must super sonic elaborate size celebration! and omg! it was super duper fun. i finally got to saw my long lost friends who are busy with their typically hectic singaporean lifestyle. sad...
so day 1 was on the 24 nov where i celebrated pre bday with moses. haha.. damn funny cos we were suppose to go shopping like mad buttt.... would have expected me to splurdge more than him right? WRONG.. he spent over 200 dollars on clothes and shoes la... i spent a measely $59 on a rolling stone tee that i love from queens couture. haha.. we ate and ate and i realise how fat i was next to his sligthly over 60kg frame. sucks! i need a flebolose! grace is that a hint?

on my actual bday was spent with dorrain and grace... oh... love them so much la! have seen each other like in yrs. dorrain looked startled at my new hair colour. haha... we went high end shopping from louis viutton to bottega veneta to versace! haha... damn kewl la... but i couldnt find a leather bag that i really long for. sigh. i havent also actually seen smth that i really like that maybe my mummy would actually have a heart to get it for me. but nah.. yet to seen any. die! cos once the fact that my bday mood wears off i can forget about it! i like mulberry le! but where the hell is the shop? btw! TOAST ROCKS! i love the food there.. haha.. new hangout spot ppl!

okok... post bday was with sujith and herman... actually, mostly herm. suj had some gp discussion. so we hanged out and upon hearing herm chatting abt his social life, i realised that my social life or dating life it seems is so non existant. how PATHETIC! dorrain and grace were busy smsing thier hot beaus and i msg stare blankly into space. yikes.. i need lup! anw, nothing really fantastic about vivocity. so huge but so crowded and yikes! it looks so low class. dont know why but the classy vibe is just so missing. BUT hang on! Gap was lovely! haha.. i saw this 500++ leather bag that i so want but so out la.. porter doesnt seem to have the leather tweed bag i saw in a magazine. haha.. some things i shldnt say but porter.. hot!... diesel... hot!

so.. here i am all 18! i am gonna note to myself my new goals in life that i hopefully want to fufil in a couple of years in my life! since there is ns and all. but i guess obviously, PARSONS IS WHAT I WANT! ANYONE CAN HELP?

HEY HEY HEY!
I AM 18!
HAHA....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
WOOBIE! I FEEL SO ATTENTION SEEKING. BUT WHATEVER, I LOVE IT!

PROM!

gosh.. prom is coming. i have not shed a single gram of fats! it looks like plan to look chic in prom will ultimately failed! i will GYM today! i must, i will. YES! must shed the flabby tummy!
anyway, i had to colour my hiar a darker shade of brown cause half of the singaporean population could not take my hair colour. haha.. i was recieving stares and at the hawker centre, my hair coolour was probably the brighter than the RED HEADED AUNTIES. so i just resigned to fate that my hair colour is too much. FUCK!
i lasered off all my moles too! haha.. yeah. it was painful but for the sake of beauty. hmm...
anyway, i was told to avoid the sun as people like me cannot get dark so all the tan becomes a mole! yikes! my eye brows are nicer shape too. haha... i feel so met or maybe i am.
my birthday is coming! even though i say it all the time, the feeling of getting high over being 18 just isnt here. sigh. maybe clubbing on fri night would help?

i hate u SUJ! lousiest friend ever..

hair...

hoo hoo haha... FRIENDS! i have changed my hair colour to some brownish base with silver highligts. striking but i adore my hair. haha... daddy dearest wasnt really pleased about it plus i wanted to lighten my eyebrows too. anyhoo, if u want to see it! better make appointment with me! why? cos me here want to get a job and change my hair colour again before prom. my current hair colour is really striking.
amazing how hair colour changes my mood!
ciao..

mixed emotions

A levels are over... kinda... i mean a chem mcq left but got to practise too. it is kinda sad that after all th e hard work i have put i dont feel any sort of happiness that wow... As are so over. i feel a tinge of sadness. this whole jc process have caused me to have lowered my ambitions considerably. i guess cos i never really worked hard from the start despite being behind othere. dont really want to predict whatsoever crappy grades i may get. cos i am never happy after any paper. i feel so PATHETIC. grrr... just hope that i can pop into a local uni. but my good friends know that local uni is really not where i wanna go.
i was so stressed out during A levels even though my mum and sis keep yakking off their monstrous mouth i am not hardworking, i may not succeed in life. whatever.. yes! i am worried that i may not be able to enjoy my current standard of living in the future. but they need not put me down any further. freaking disgusting what detrimental effects people's mouth have. it pretty much sucks.
anyway, here are some of the sick side effects that came popping out of my body during A levels: i have a pimple breakout, ezcema breakout (sick), eye bags, i said weird things while sleeping like dont eat my heart to my maid and looked cramped up while sleeping. haha... i hope all of these will never come back ever.
after the whole freakish jc experience, i pretty much know that i am not a brain person cos i gotta work my hands too... NO! THAT DOES NOT INCLUDE WRITING! haha... i hope to find a degree course where there are some technical aspects but surely not anything that has got to do with sciences.
anyway, wish me luck in trying to get back my tuition fees from my bloody physics tuition tr! he had lessons on the previous days when there is gp and worst of all at night before physics. blegh... so fucking last minute la.. oh yeah. hope that i will remember anything i studied for A LEVELS. haha.. i dun think so... give me a couple of minutes.. oops? what is statistics?

beep beep beep!

anw, gp was pretty tough. lets not get into details though... dont wanna worry and then put myself down. i had enough of it from cy.
here is a message to GOD!

dear god,
can u please give me the strength to pull myself together and do well for my A levels. i just dont feel the energy to be able to pull through such a big feat at all. so many years of education and this is all i have left and all i need to being me to a whole new place. i know i havent been the most hardworking kid in the country but.... sorry, i have no excuses for being such a slob indeed. pls grant me all wisdom and strength. i need to clear my head of all the desires i have right now. these are secondary matters. they can wait or just perish. i dont care. thanks! hugs and kisses!
darren