HORRIBLE.... at least for me only!

yeah.. i'm addicted to social smoking..

yes excuses... i smoke...

i do it occasionally when i leave the hse..

now i got the

FUCKING COUGH AND THE FLU...

it's not enjoyable.

but what to do...

i guess ppl are disappointed in me for acting this way...

i dunno...

is it my way of craving attention?

until i find someone who will lay a helping hand

and pull my out of this ditch?

i hope so....

maybe not.. haha.. GOD KNOWS!

otherwise, life's been pretty EXCELLENT around me!

3 of the most impt ppl in my life are HAPPILY ATTACHED!

YAY! :)

really happy that they are doing well....

i do get affected greatly by those around me..

when others seem to be in a merrier state..

well... i just glee up too! :D

HAHHA.... ok ok..

i know i sound NICE HERE...

but i am like a fucking bitch in real life..

so whatever..

recently, i have been having loads fun time with keith!

haha.. we went to THE RED WINE CELLAR

to drink risely...

which i personally tot smelled like glue

and tasted horrid..

the bellini in timber was also

MAYJAH GROSS BIG TIME!

hahha..

i have never ever tasted the bellini i drank in

SIROCCO STATE TOWER IN BKK

that was the best ever...

yeah.. it did cost 65 bucks for a glass..

BUT HARLOW PPL..

IT WAS SO GOOD ALRIGHT!

caprihina as introduced by scott was

great!

i mean what could go wrong with lime, brown sugar n vodka right?

hahah..

yeah.. the pizza was actaully delicious too..

oh yeah.. i went timbre cos i got pulled by my clique to go for the class outing that as usual was FUCKING DULL...

the usual separation... hmm.. go figure..

fatigue screams deep in my soul right now..

i gtg and slp..

nights!

Needing a totally revamp

yes.. i have decided that april will be the new month for me where

DRASTIC FANTASTIC CHANGES WILL OCCUR.

I have enought of being sloppy, tired, messy!

it's kinda irritating me.

my room is such a pig sty with books everywhere..

clothes in the air...

bags filling up every single avaliable space!

ok.. so i shall state the changes i shall make in my life...

YEAH.. I KNOW!

U ARE LAUGHING OUT LOUD!

cant u guys just try to be NICE! :P

so here goes...

1. I will sleep before 12am on wkdays!
2. i will no longer engage in mindless chatters with strangers.. (having gone out with so many in the last month has seriously made the word "DRAINING" a whole new level.
3. i will have a proper schedule on my daily life.
4. i cannot be hogging the comp all the time.
5. i promise to not get into the whole politicking in my office. ( ok la.. if the bitches dont bite first!)
6. i will eat healthily and exercise more!

DECLARATION: I AM A HOT TRANNY MESS

seriously, whats worng with me! i cant seem to

CONCENTRATE

on anything decent at all..

like something is sapping my life away.

i dont even know what i want.

i dont even know what i like!

i just feel

NUMB....

like that's not valid or anything.

i think i just need my friends.

i dun want anyone else who i feel is

all shady and gross..

is being kind and understanding

even enough for me?

i dun think so.

my life is a major mystery.

i hope the puzzle unfolds in itself.

all i want is just to get on with life.

i am not suppose to blog about NS and all.

and i am not!

i am just saying the mundane routine lifestyle

has just gotten the better of me.

i feel lost n unimportant.

like is my work even near exciting?

whoa..

P.S: i have no idea why my background in my comp is ACTUALLY PINK! weird.

so here i go..

marching on in my life on

MY CK PATENT SANDALS

i actually dig them.

let me veg on my bks pls god!

FIERCEST ENTRY EVER...

oh gosh.. life's been rather exhausting lately.

too many things have happend in the past 2 wks.

i guess alot of my close friends have been rather amused

or let's just say

plainly DISGUSTED

by my actions. :P

in a few weeks,

i have managed to accomplish a feat in my own records!

in simple terms,

9 in 3 wks.

beat that suckers!

hahahhahahahahhahahahahhahaha....

anw, car crash alert again. like this stupid bitch knocked into my car!

yes! like finally! it is not my fault..

:P

it was that woman.

she didnt look went she turned right then BANG hit my car.

i chased her like a mad bitch and horning at her!

it was pretty lets just say

AMAZING!

how she tot that i was having road range.

BITCH U FUCKING CRAZY..

gawd. that was vulgar.. need to unleash my inner demons.

any here are some pretty quick updates:

1. i got aimed by my officer for hogging the phone too long to christopher. lol.. it has been keith recently tho. since, someone decided to go MIA due to unforseen CIRCUMSTANCES!
2. erm.. well, i am studying again. that's good i guess.
3. Project runway Season 4 is FIERCE. lol.. it's pretty good season to watch. i am so rooting for Jillian. but then i know who the winner is! kinda find with it tho. he has character! kudos to him!
4. my handphone bills has sky rocketed! oops! i have managed to joined the Singtel Reds Rewards thingy for hitting an average of more than $100 bucks in hp bills a month. mummy wont be too pleased. YELPS!

so back to my sordid-rather-amusing-uber-crappy-loads-of-drama-mummy-screaming-daddy-hurling-vulgarities life.

it's pretty sad. :(

but then again, who am i to complain when kids in africa are suffering

and madonna's kids have to see their mum in GROSS POSES!