lonely

what if 20 years from now the same thing is happening now happens again?

i sit here alone.
feeling sad and sorry for myself.
being unaccomplished in many fields of my life.
so what if i got my new haircut. even tho i heart it! haha.
everyone i love around me is in bliss. :) yay!
i know that there are bumps on the road.
nothing is smooth.
but still, better to savour the moment than never i say.
i dont know it's because i am being picky.
but i'm human.
isnt there freedom of choice?
then why am i complaining?
gosh, i make my life even more complex!
it's amazing how i torture myself mentally.
vicious cycle it may be.
i dont know.
let's hope at the end of it all.
i dont have to sing to the world.
YOU MUST LOVE ME.....