Life's is a bed of sweet peaches but thorny ROSES...

so fuck u bitches reading my blog.

yes u guys.

i am in a super foul mood right now.

having fever and my comp is lagging.

i dont know.

i feel digusted with myself.

i dont know why. maybe it is the fever. so dont blame me k! :P

my stupid hp doesnt stop buzzing! omg u wont believe it man. when i switched it on this morning it went beep beep beep * 10! imagine annoying a trillion times plus a major headache.

fuck. it's still beeping now.

so yeah.. single once again. i dunno. maybe i deserve it.

i'm being needy.

yes, i know it.

i guess i know what i want so well that if i know that

at the end of it all, if this is not what i am getting

FUCK OFF.

then i start regretting again.

the whole process begins.

hmm.. teenage angst.

when can it stop.

so anw, i realised driving is theraputic!

yes. i drove aimlessly the other day in my murano at 130km/hr on the expressway.

yup, u know me!

HAZARD TO MYSELF!

lol..

so i have been visiting laurent bennet chocolatier with tonnes of people..

hmm.. in love with the choc tart.

how nice if someone wld buy it for me!

not me having to drive there with people to get it.

:(

i have to admit i was jealous of my aunt with her bf then other day when we were out.

they were so lovey dovey....

me?

LONELY... MR LONELY...

am i so hard to be with?

probably all my friends will say so..

but u gotta admit. i have mellowed down TONNES!

no longer the self conceited asshole.

so i kinda decided what i wanan do after i ord.

YUP..

BYE ALL..

I AM GOING TO NEW YORK TO WORK..

that is where i want to be.. i am trying to save up now.

to be there in by march 25 and working there alone.

i know it is not going to be easy, not relying on my parents.

i know they will disapprove.

but this quote got to me big time.

Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did so. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.

MARK TWAIN

i guess this is what i wanna live by. not by regrets or anything else.

otherwise, what else is there to live for.

cos right now.

i dun believe in true love.

i dun see it!

i dun believe anything last forever..

it only last for that moment.

maybe only my mummy n daddy..

lol..

i love them.

but they SUCK sometimes.

hmmm...