so i admitted

and so i decided to tell...
i guess i wasnt that bad.
they didnt treat me as if i was abnormal.
well, maybe they did.
or maybe i didnt feel it.
oh fuck, ok! they are fantastic actors.
hahah.
it is not as if i am like dying.
haha..
well, she said that it could be my last any moment.
like a russian poker or smth..
blood test came out fine..
everything was fantastic! :)
peace of mind!
so exams are coming like in a few months.
i do feel the intensity.
it's exciting.
but the squabbles with them are not making things any easier.
this is life.
what the fuck is easy!
NOTHING.
i guess, i have to learn to let go.
they arent always gonna be free for me to go visit.
i have to learn how to cope by myself.
i have to be independent.
so they have been saying being single equals misery.
seriously, the word desperation has reached new heights.
personally, it's disgusting.
cant we be self-contented?
are we so over-reliant these days?
hmm... well it goes to show how much of a fantasy we live in.
haha...
i love reading. fantasy in it's own huh!
cant wait for sunday tho! picnic in the park. lovely.
friends, food and wine. purrfection.
cant ask for anything more in life.
a quote that is pretty hilarious:
"darren, impulsive shopping only goes so far when u actually use them and they dont look so major! i dont know about those patent shoes."
haha.