forsaken

life has too much things to be worrying about...
i have forsaken alot of stuff
why?
i dun seem to put effort into it and have the motivation to excel
tennis, studies, emotions
hmm....
regrets?
yeah...
do i feel bad?
no...
i dont know why... dont ask

i went for general paper tuition today
surely, it was an enligthening experience
my tutor blasted me with why my grades are fucking lousy
firstly, i need to be more organised (i totally am so not)
secondly, i need to be more focused and motivated (yeah! i am also not)
thirdly, i need to eradicte secondary stuff from my life (on my way there!)

i was telling him that i binge when i am stress
he answered: why not? whats wrong?
i was shocked! i lose so much weight and have to suffer the humiliation of being fat again
FUCKING FORGET IT!
he wanted me to start drinking coffee too...
eww...
high calories man...
FUCKING FORGET IT AGAIN!
haha....