in summary: my life in the past week

actually, i shouldn't be doing this! i should be burying my head in my ever growing homework. i haven't gone for lessons consistently cos of tennis, medical checkup and was sick. my school work is suffering greatly. i am so unable to catch up! i was having a haircut the other day and the old granny (my mum's customer) was telling me to cherish time. which till now, i have not done that. i hate myself. i have no or ZERO discipline. i should change my habits but i try and fail! all this stress is making me FAT! i mean literally. no joke. stress is not my best friend at all. i eat and choke on my fats when i am stress. that is why i lose weight better during the holidays. i am waiting for june holidays to have a real workout again.

i went for medical checkup for national service today. i was totally embarressed by m flabby body. i dunno if it is fats or excess skin but i didnt like it. i felt so miserable, guess what i did? i ate! urgh... i am doomed to get fatter. sick and tired of it. i have to change. seriously, i have said it too many times but when would i have the balls to get there? sigh!

anyway, i am still suffering from post pulau tinngi trip. havent fully recovered from the tiredness from the trip despite doing nothing much there. ok! i did snorkelling, kayaking, trekking and star gazing. oh yeah! lots of UNOing too.. haha.. the card game. i love the star gazing especially! i felt so minute in the universe when i kept have this thinking that i was this huge star in the world when actually i am close to nothing. humprf! how sad and depressing! the trip has turned me bronzed but not for long. i dont turn dark for long. another sad thing.

kanesh is heading to india for and eye operation. wish him all the best. i haven't seen any of my friends in ages. ouch! i feel bad. haven't spend time with brynner too. we only ate lunch and bye! thats all. i guess people are busy with their lives and i am idling mine away. May will be the month where things will change or it will be too late already. come on. G-O! GO! i can do it!