welcome to the charade of life...
people have been saying i havent been blogging lately. why? cos i feel that i dont have the ability to produce a good entry. i guess its a personal thing. i am trying to please myself by writing something that i feel is beyond the "lah, lor, leh" that i sprout daily. so sorry to those people who want to read my blog but cant see any new entry lately.
life hasnt exactly been the cliche where life is a bed of roses. life isnt merry as some over optimistic people call it to be. maybe like what my friends say, i over think situations. yes, i probably have to admit that i do. working in citibank has taken its toll on my body. having to face a quater life crisis has increased the toll. i do feel happy that i went on a trip to bangkok! yup... my second home! it has rejuvenated me in many ways. shockingly, i actually went erawan temple to pray twice! those who know me may be gasping! cos i am never the religious type. *pouts* haha.. but i really am so worried over my A levels. *pouts again*
luckily, all these may came to an end. *a fake smile appears* it will probably in a week where i end work and get my results. after all the sobbing with pathetic results! then, a new chapter comes. army. i am neutral about entering army. i feel dry after having so much emotions about it. i dont loathe it or anything like most people expect me to. but taking it in my stride and having no expectations.
we'll see in my future entries!
sadly, i have no idea when my quater life crisis may end. it is something that is hard to explain to people. unless u have gone through it. here goes.. i havent been exactly the good looking one ever! i really mean ever. i was fat all the time. thus, leading me having sickening identity crisis all the time. i strived to look good by losing weight. over 30kg to be exact! but i dont know how to deal with it. not being an ego maniac, but i have been recieving so many stares from stranger on the streets so fucking often. it scares me. ok... maybe i am better looking but i feel that people stare at me like i am an alien of some sort. its so bizzare! they never let their eyes off me until i stare back with my bitch eyes. friends who have been out with me can attest to it. i guess i need to ignore it somehow. or being the bitch i am! haha.. i will bark at them! grrrr....
anyway here is something totally out of the box that i feel since i being older. cos i feel wiser! ") i feel that i should let some things go. yup. be it money or anything else. cos life is all about feeling free! so maybe u can try. take a different perspective and things may be rosier?
i shall upload some pics from bangkok on my next entry when my camera arrives! i dropped it! ouch! u dont want to hear the endless oral torture i suffered! thank god for ear wax!
life hasnt exactly been the cliche where life is a bed of roses. life isnt merry as some over optimistic people call it to be. maybe like what my friends say, i over think situations. yes, i probably have to admit that i do. working in citibank has taken its toll on my body. having to face a quater life crisis has increased the toll. i do feel happy that i went on a trip to bangkok! yup... my second home! it has rejuvenated me in many ways. shockingly, i actually went erawan temple to pray twice! those who know me may be gasping! cos i am never the religious type. *pouts* haha.. but i really am so worried over my A levels. *pouts again*
luckily, all these may came to an end. *a fake smile appears* it will probably in a week where i end work and get my results. after all the sobbing with pathetic results! then, a new chapter comes. army. i am neutral about entering army. i feel dry after having so much emotions about it. i dont loathe it or anything like most people expect me to. but taking it in my stride and having no expectations.
we'll see in my future entries!
sadly, i have no idea when my quater life crisis may end. it is something that is hard to explain to people. unless u have gone through it. here goes.. i havent been exactly the good looking one ever! i really mean ever. i was fat all the time. thus, leading me having sickening identity crisis all the time. i strived to look good by losing weight. over 30kg to be exact! but i dont know how to deal with it. not being an ego maniac, but i have been recieving so many stares from stranger on the streets so fucking often. it scares me. ok... maybe i am better looking but i feel that people stare at me like i am an alien of some sort. its so bizzare! they never let their eyes off me until i stare back with my bitch eyes. friends who have been out with me can attest to it. i guess i need to ignore it somehow. or being the bitch i am! haha.. i will bark at them! grrrr....
anyway here is something totally out of the box that i feel since i being older. cos i feel wiser! ") i feel that i should let some things go. yup. be it money or anything else. cos life is all about feeling free! so maybe u can try. take a different perspective and things may be rosier?
i shall upload some pics from bangkok on my next entry when my camera arrives! i dropped it! ouch! u dont want to hear the endless oral torture i suffered! thank god for ear wax!
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